ThrowBack. of 07'

How beautiful it is to look out into the world with a smile on my face. to see that my surrounds seem to be much more brighter and better. The thought of you brings me to my feet, and i continue to love you more and more. Through the simple gestures that you do... From the die hard, try hard, ways you make me smile. By the i love yous and i miss yous i feel that i matter, and your actions let me know that your still down. With the silly love songs on replay, i replay our story in our mind over and over, rewinding to the good old memories, and pausing at the height of our relationship. And sometimes we tend to press fast forward to what we want to see, and we role play our future in our dreams. It's like i see a setting me walking to you in a wedding dress . With the little newborns that we'll share together. Then we awake from our dream, and believing in our love, we strive for it, live for it, and go for it. Life for us is crazy, and like you said " it's a crazy feeling when dreams and reality collide." we bumped heads in this crowd full of people, and you took that chance to take the next step. Falling in love like never before. I've finally found someone that can read. Like a blind person blessed with the chance to see again. You were my chance. My chance to finally see how beautiful the world is. My chance to not just hear love, and touch love. But my chance to be in love and see for myself how greatly love can change you. Our curiosity leads us to get to know each other on more than a personal level. From universal, but most of all unconditional love, that we share. The spoken bond, led us to have an unspoken connection. With one glance into your eyes, i find myself getting lost in you. weaving through your mind, and finding out everything that i don't know yet. And the more i look inside you, the closer i feel to you. The intense feelings rise and you feel as if you're uplifted and are living and breathing the perfect life, because your other half is starring straight to your soul. I suddenly get the urge to place my small arms around you.. and embrace your emotions with care. I want you to feel like I'll never let you down. You made me crave for your caress, and hope you don't leave my side. You reassured me that you'll always be there. The days that i watched you fall asleep in my arms, and I'd whisper i love you into your ear. Cause even when your in your deepest sleep i wanted you to know that i loved you. I want you to feel the one kiss and freeze in that moment and get lost in it, like i do. our foolish times spent mad & arguing was silly. right after the fight we were back to saying i love you. Back to back facing different directions we still saw eye to eye. Our differences made us more inseparable. My days revolve around you, because you were my sunshine. The only thing that gets me up in the morning, and looking forward to my life with you in it. Your feet are hurt by walking all those hard times alone. I'd gladly cop you a pair of new J's, to show that i got you even though we're apart. That no matter what you walk through in life your not alone. Oh how life is so beautiful... You've showed me so much more than any relationship I've been in. shopping, and spending can't amount to loving and mending of a broken heart. The repairs that you made on my heart would have cost so much, but you've fixed and repaired me with no cost at all. Priceless. Your love, your time, and your dedication to me is what helped me. From time to time i imagine you, and in my daily routine i stop and i find myself daydreaming. my heart still beats with heavy drums, and i get butterflies from the sounds of it. Hip Hop is the main reason why you still live within me. HIPHOP is the knowledge, it's a movement. And when i play that perfect verse over that tight ass beat, you're still that love that will never die. My hip hop, not pop lock , lean with the rock. But hip hop, at it's finest. You're the realest, and all you speak is the truth. You've made me realize that throughout life you can make mistakes, but don't ever continue with a lie. I'm blessed and i just happened to stubble upon something so great. You've taken me to a places that I've never been and back. I wonder when that next handful of blessings will come. I will never be complete as i was when i was with you. . .

this feeling is indefinable....

Drive Myself Crazy.. thinkin' of yoou

it's crazy to think about how much one person can really mean to you. when you think about all the things that you've been throughout everything you really want to make everything work. Although you still love and care about the other person it still hurts. Why put yourself through that when you can just let it all go? If only it was that simple. To just brush aside your emotions and feelings for that person would just be a lie. How do you pursue someone when they don't feel the same about you? I still don't know.. I still don't know why I'm constantly resisting to fight. Why am i still putting my emotions and feelings on the line for someone that will never want to be with you..? Hope perhaps? Maybe one day i'll be over the fact that i love you. Maybe one day you'll realize that you love me too.. but until then i'll be driving myself crazy, with everything on the line for someone who is just a friend.. i miss you.

AHHHH.

Is it really worth the pain? Is crying really gonna help you get over the fact that you lost someone? What can you really do when worse comes to worse? How do you put your emotions aside and try to live your life normally? Questions, questions..And some have answers that don't add up to making you feel 100%. There's always something missing.. Second chances? Is it worth it to go through the heartache all over again? Should i go back to what i know? What i know is how i feel, and how i feel isn't helping me. i'm losing my mind, lost in daze i can't get myself out of.. Talking to my mind, and questioning my heart.. this will never end as long as my heart knows what it wants, this cycle won't stop till my heart does.. AHHHH.

" i mean i ain't crazy or nothing, i'm just crazy over you... what's wrong with that? huh? "

BRING IT BACK

"Yeah, sitting in the staircase, holding back tears
Looking over mad years worth of photographs
Pictures of some places I ain't never going back
Some people I used to love, why I ain't show them that?
The skies was overcast, when I was sober last
My head is spinning, couldn't tell you if it's slow or fast "
The Roots- Clock With No Hands

"Greenbacks in stacks, don't even ask
who got the fat sacks we can max pumpin fat tracks
Exchangin facts about impacts, cause in facts
My freestyle talent overpowers brothers can't hack.. it
They lack wit; we got the mack shit
93 'Til Infinity - kill all that wack shit"
Souls Of Mischief - 93 till Infinity


"Days are shorter, nights are colder Feeling like life is over, these snakes strike like a cobra The world's hot my son got not evidently It's elementary, they want us all gone eventually Trooping out of state for a plate knowledge of coke was cooked without the garbage we'd all have the top dollars"
Nas- If i ruled the world
"Street ministry, my poetry's a penitentiary, track is visitation .Sentences is life, I'm like chief up in this demonstration Still..getting mine in the * one * nine * nine * nine*
Common - 1-9-9-9
"Im energetic, poetic, athletic, with good credit So just move like I'm Simon and I said it Ya see my flow is just a step ahead I'm still wicked in a bed because I'm down right nasty like newlyweds…."
GRAND PUBA. - i like it

BRING BACK THE 90's.. :)

friendships

true faces & they'll never change ..

adolescence with no stress

old friendships never grow old

one of my truest * so much love for you

since.04' bestfriend. " when your good, i'm good =) "

homies&sisters for lyfe. *mwahs

*barriebond-bombshells. - pavel truly saw the real me

familarfaces. long lost family

*away i go, fuck a chaser.. lol

*no chase.. :) i miss this day

shopping time with sisturfriiend

Gio i always got chur back babyboy. ateh loves you

* and to think we've been friends for a long time? 2nd time chillin with everyone

* sometimes, it's the friendships you have that make you a stronger person.. The people you meet in your lifetime were meant to be there for you in one way or another, even if it was for a short period of time, or even if it were broken friendships they made an impact in your life one way or another.. The people that i have encountered, the people that I've grown so close to are the very people that i can call my true friends. I may know a lot of people, but in reality i know who really holds me down. Thank-you for always being there for me :) always. No matter the situation.

Shad Writes

This is our world now.

But the sad truth is that we all get older but we don't call get grown..
When i look at my friends i see royalty. People being born to reign. Born to lead. Born to give up our lives for something noble. But it is so rarely ever ends up that way...

And i'm terrified because i already see the opposite starting to happen with myself and the people around me. We settle. We get worse; Less compassionate, less concerned, less truth...

We compromise who we are and run the very serious risk of losing ourselves completely.

And so i plead with ou like i plead myself- daily, constantly- not to give up; keep searching, keep trying, keep believing... I am hopeful. Because God himself promises to be with those who do that. Perhaps we will do the impossible..

- Shad K