you make the choice..

Be careful what you think, because our thoughts run your life.
PROVERBS 4:23

circumstances

In life there is always and will be certain situations that we have no control over, maybe it will hurt us, burn us, crush us, and change the way we look at life. In a certain way peoples mind's are so closed off to opportunities in life that are right before they're eyes. I stand here with people in my life going through certain situations like death, sickness, heartbreak, and financial problems.

It's hard to find the solution to the kind of problems that you can't hide from. Yet our minds are so conditioned to thinking that PROBLEMS arise and will break us down.. problems will make us weaker, and make the decisions in our life much more complicated then it already is.. I take a look at my own life grateful for what was given to me, grateful for situations that allow me to grow and learn from. I know maybe my life isn't stable and great. There is so much more out there..

We live and we learn. So much people are dying full of potential, full of dreams never experienced.. And the truth is, you can achieve all the things that you want..you will and can get over your broken heart, losing someone, illness, and financial stability.. We are so concerned about " how " we're gonna do it.. Yet when your heart is in the right place, you believe and have faith, things will only get better, life is just beginning. You set yourself up for an outcome that you want, not what your conditioned to from media, friends, government, ITS YOU WHO MAKES YOUR LIFE. Not anyone else will allow you to be successful, it's all in your hands.. You were given all this potential and drive that lives inside you, and yet we chose the easy way out.. What's safe..

From time we compare our self to other people we lose the sight of what we're destined to be. We as people are very judgmental in a sense that hatred is spread throughout us all.. because of what? Jealously? Greed? Are we so driven by what other people tell us that we find it difficult to make a life of our own. That decisions we make are based on instinct and not on what we firmly believe could be drastically life changing.. Hold yourself up for once, i learned in life that everything is never a coincidence, everything that we experience we grow from it.. From the people we meet, the way we think, and how much our own life can maybe open someone's eyes to what they've never seen.

to be continuted...

here i stand .. '

I'm hopin that this ain't too hard to believe
Cause baby you're the only one for me
I know it get hard when im moving in and out of state
But I promise my heart for you I would save
Just remember that..

No matter how far I go
And no matter how long it takes
No one or nothing can change
Forever yours here I stand (Here I stand baby)

GO, ON THE COUNT OF 3

GO To a place that you wanna be,uh get what you want from her and me uh
GO Free love I wanna see uh, hot sex in the third degreeuh
GO You gettin' served while servin' me uh,
dirty words encourage me to Rock steady and sturdily on,
you turnin' me no turnin' back the further we.... go

BESTFRIENDS

B e s t f r i e n d ; thank-you best. baby you the best =) we've been through some pretty harsh times, we've gone to the worst places and back.. But honestly when I'm good, your good.. so be good!* Too many real talks going down in multiple garages, porches, basements. Put your lighters up, and spark that. Too many people claiming that this is more than just a best friend thing... yet your considered one of the family. let's ball on sexy grange courts, lets bike at 12 at night to the west end of town, let's celebrate the 3rd of May, October, and November . TRIPPPPLES. let's toast to the KATEERS for real friendships last a life time.. Meeting at my homecourt gym, katrina's 16th to katrina's 18th.. we did it " real big !" With what we got in our hands homie we finnna live the life we always deserved. West Minister hoods to Real Estate that's good =) FLORDIA BABY.. we gon' do it real big.

BPS is HipHop Stubbed toes.
REALNESS =)




♥i love you best. always will.
hold it down.

hmps, family business

Family : I still can't wait to make this happen. I still can't imagine how things are gonna be for us in the future. With family business with tough patches and rough edges things will eventually get better. This will all blow over, I grew up not knowing what my cousins grew up to be, i grew up with aunts & uncles missing birthdays, Christmas, New Years, and Fam jams. Back in the day Saturdays were family jams with a full house, loud music, and not an empty stomach growling.. I missed all the new years with the very cousins I used to see every single day of the summer, and now I'm lucky to see them in a calender month. PRIDE PRIDE PRIDE. People hold grudges to the point of no return. They look at the wrong without realizing it wrong is now gone. And look we're all stuck in this awkward situation where seeing each other is silenced? I pray everyday for things to get better, and it seems as if it's making slow progress. Things will eventually get back to how is used to. Pride will not get in the way. " Blood is thicker than water.. " keep things flowing.

note to self: slow motion is better than no motion.

pumped, promoted, pleased!

it's almost the end of the month, i need to get on my grind..
so much things to look forward too.. PROMOTED BITCHES :)
LIFE IS GREAT RIGHT NOW, i love my family, i love my homies
i love my life, so please stop this " FML " business..

you hate your life so much, that a figure of expression can just sum up life like that?
enjoy your life, live it to the fullest.. my reality is far better than i could ever dream.
things are just getting better.. on the way to the life i always deserved.

thank-you god,
multiple blessings just handed with no hesitation.
ready for action. MIND OVER MATTER.

Speaking Of Truth

Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.
Dale Carnegie

mmkay?!

people are pretty stupid to think that my life revolves around theres'.... it's too bad that insecurities are getting the best of you, cause i know for a damn fact that other peoples opinions wouldn't determine where me and the one that i love stand. from what i know, you were never in any of the pages in my diary, so why are you following my tracks? grow up and mature your mind, this high school drama shit is out my my league now.. i'm a grown ass woman this shit is just funny..

find a new hobby girl, cause it's a new world outside of high school. there's no " popularity contest any more..." the world isn't looking for a prom king&queen.. I've been on top of the world and im going back for some more. grow the fuck up, the words that come from the screen to your eyes is called thoughts... i suggest you start using your own mind.

peace&love bitches.

mysterious.

the way you are moves me,
you stare once and i feel your interest
shy at times, collective persona makes your different
not like others your incite about life gets me interested
having conversations that speaks real.
heart to heart, im shook
you make me nervous, i don't know what to say
yet, with words you speak you make me comfortable again

determined and aiming for higher goals,
committed to what you want despite failure
i just want to know you.
i can't seem to get through to you,
somehow, you keep to yourself
you live for : trust & love

mysterious man; i didn't catch you at first glance.
but you've seemed to catch my attention.
speechless.

sushi.sushi

yes yes, there's offically more than 1 sushi place in guelph now.. ! im pretty hyped' bout it.. yum, so deliciouus meeng. spicy crunchy salmon roll's are the shieet . i think i have a sushi fetish. craving our hunger yesterday with sushi, me christian, and froiboy made our way hockey sushi, so delicious. it's honestly the shiet especially when your starving beyond words. yum.yum.yum. i think we do this on the regular,lemmie just get this out there " I LOVE SUSHI " lol

happy canada day.

my dear friend, i hate to see and hear you hurting. The news that comes up from the times that i receive a call from you hurts me. When you speak of the troubles that arrise and the so called " normal fights " with your girlfriend just ticks me off, because if you step out of your reality you'll realize that you deserve so much better. You deserve to be treated with respect, and with love. with all the love that i have for you, you should know that it's only because i care. It's only because i care that i yell at you and tell you things like.." your stupid " your sticking it out because in your subconscious mind you're thinking your so much better off, yet you bear the pain and try to regain this sense of love that you want in your life all over again... and at what cost? just so your not alone, that really doesn't cut it, it's better to be alone and happy, then in a relationship miserable!!! some may beg to differ, but from your stand point... alone looks so much better off for the time being.. and with saying all this i come to the point of your dreams... the dreams that are basically your subconsious mind telling you.." WTF ARE YOU DOING? STOP PLAYING YOURSELF, YOU DESERVE BETTER... " and it's so sad that you had to dream about it and realize after the dream that i was right all along...

the thoughts that go through your mind are real, and that feelings that come along with it are making you realize this even more.. please listen to your dreams if not me.. because it's really, honestly telling you something... It's saving you? perhaps, unless you don't want to be saved. i really really care about you, you've been my friend since how long? i think you know where i'm coming from... bring back the old friend that i used to know.

i love you best! please make your move before it's too late.

... having bad dreams latley? check out this website and it basically breaks down your dreams into emotions and thoughts.. it's pretty dope.
dreamoods.com

PT2.

that was pretty much a vent out to someone that i care about... lemmie break it down for you.. HAPPY CANADA DAY. Yep maybe around 24 of my friends and myself decided to mission for some Mandarin Buffet today, since it was FREE. yep i said it FREE.. bring your passport for the enjoyment of free food, it basically took the whole day for this thing to jump off, since the line was from the sidewalk circled around the whole parking lot... Rain or Shine people were mad prepared. it was a good day, a long 5 hour wait with friends seemed like 1hour & half just joking around with my homie, it was a good time.. headed back to the orphanage house to chill with the homies it was a wet canada day so the enjoyment of fireworks didn't really happen.. awe well, it was a good day over all..

peace & love .